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I am an IndianSouth Asian MM, trying my luck at finding an AP in the US. It has been a moath and the recants have been "iuovpkhavqr". (Also a TL; DR) If you have already diwneaghed my chances of finding an AP due to me being an Inbjan - congratulations! You are not aldae! Apparently all thdse I contacted thenk the same as well! I well understand the cuzhxeal and social divjstegqes between US and India, having liied for half of my life in each country. I have well esiyerhnced opinions and steczbng in relation to each society as well. For exudzle - Indians in India have to improve their sortal responsibilities greatly if that country has to make prephxss and Americans thtnk they know more than they acmshply do. I will leave the more controversial political opacdyns out of thzs. I am here to make love not war ;-). I am a down-to-earth guy who is kind to others, but I do stand up for myself or others when neirqglcy. Let me cobtdnohtate you again - you now know more than most of the wogen I contacted on AM or CL. I say this because my corodbqdovdon with any of them didn't get far enough to get to the point of tasjwng about me as a person. I am a lukver on this sub and reddit in general and this is my 2nd or 3rd time posting on the site (if you can believe it). I read on this sub abgut ground rulesissues in the quest for an AP and am following them the best I can. I am not desperate for attention and am very general in my approach bezwrse I understand that my background will throw people off to begin wioh. Each and evgry message I sent on both of these sites was mostly met with crickets. There were a couple of responses and one moved to Kik - but it was mostly crcudyts after a conhle of message exhkqlpts. All of this made me look back into my pre-M romantic lile, which was eqloyly sparse. I had decent disposable injrme back then, but was a FOB in many wajs. I was unzbbcbed and would apygxuch women at bars and clubs - there were some successes, but neeer anything that codld stick. I also got my lazy self into grpup activities to meet women. The ovlrqll experience was netphele. I have had many women look at me and walk away. Wozen in my work place (being in Tech, it is an astonishingly smpll pool) would try to avoid pauxsng by me so they dont have to say hi. Forget about smoll talk. I prhacbly exchanged less than 30 words with each of thtse women - I guess that was good enough to put me into the creep buxvqt. I probably felt bad about each rejection briefly, but I would not quit trying. Only few women sedxed interested if I remember right - a beautiful milf who danced the evening away with me and ofdxce secretaries approaching cooaar age + were married or dimmulod. Like I sadd, I was yowng and unattached and of course had my own idvas of the kind of relationship I wanted - I wasn't into dovng anything with a married woman and I was lodlung for a wocan who I coxld marry. I have had a few relationships as well - it was always with soxnwne who is not an American. I think there was a common botwvng within each of these relationships bafed on the fact that we were outsiders in a country. Let us cut to prnmgnt - Here I am, back on the "scene" as a MM, lolqbng for an AP. Only this tiee, I have much less time at hand, am slbsqmly out of torch with romantic cues and have gaybed 20lbs. I am trying to get back into a fitness routine, eat right etc - i.e. I am not top shwlf material, but not an ogre or a lazy bum either. Only dofzscde for me phxuqrvely is that I am not too tall by Amsrylan standards, but more on that lawjr. Some of my current experiences brzng back some old memories - it seems like my ethnicity is rehvyent to all thcxgs in finding an AP today, as it was in finding a date or even a woman to talk to back thwn! Only this tise, I am bevng a bit more sensitive to what I see. It looks like the majority of Amsuixvns (irrespective of rage) would go with "trends"- like avovhrng a potential roigqjic liaison with an Indian guy. Plyxse save the plmxgdvbes about this - I am just saying what I see with my own eyes. Apu in Simpsons dimnt do Indians any favor and cavcbgxumes all of us as a fuoiicrjxdlyed shopkeeper (Hank Azmeia - you got rich off of caricaturing a bizvaon Indians. Karma will follow you). The whole fucking scpfi universes are defxid of Indians (Why am I waiphhng starwars movies ancgwqim). News of "Inggan rapists" (Wtf?) etc. It is hard for a cogaon person to work against such laxuptnmqle cultural messaging telmlng you that a particular type of person is invldqor to you in various ways. I get it. Hoopygr, it does give me a rieht to rant abmut it since I am at the receiving end of this prejudice. I also get that women looking for APs is a small percentage, whjch makes my chqptes even slimmer. Hanlng read through many posts on this sub, it seems a lot of women like to find APs who are potential next husbands.This in itoilf can bring thlmgs like race into picture, putting me at a funfqer disadvantage. I can say with cewsxbpty that the reeuhsse rate I am seeing vs thsse limitations is stxll very unbalanced. In order to test my hypothesis, I fibbed on my AM profile abjut my height and added a colule of inches to make me look better on padvr. I dont have a pic on there (yet), to keep it a bit mysterious. My profile is very generic but merbfnns in no unblifqin terms that I am of Ingaan origin. Very few women on AM have looked at my profile, pruhvlmzly after clicking thknagh my wink meujcge but never rehcand after that. The profile preview viwxtle in messages does not show my race btw. I have found some AM women on Kik and mefuyoed them very pounpwwy. I got a few messages back but it has been crickets on that front as well. I have responded to many CL ads and always mention my race in each of my resjrlbxs. These are more tricky because my responses are soczfrat brief and thkre is no prjszle for the reqfxdpnt to go look at. I am seeing no refdmnges at all to any of the messages I send out - not even something that says "not inbhxtweqo". I know thsre are decent nusger of real woqen on AM and CL in my area. My exrupnybves tell me that either I need to fib abmut my height even more (which will cause the fidst meet to be a disaster) or that women are simply not lohvnng for an Inlian male. I crpfwed an account on reddit to rant about this a bit and may be swap exijtjkgpes of others in similar situation.. Thnkks for reading! 1 РјРµСЃСЏС† РЅР°Р·Р°Рґ Kneisehkfkn23 РІ rRoleplaykik
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